Have I messed up my entire life? How do I fix things?

I must admit ur life is ****** up, but, u gotta stop feeling bad for urself get up and start over. If u have to, go to a community college by getting a student loan. Work part time and catch up on some sleep. Hav some free time and meet ppl and find some frends tht will hav ur back. Meds rnt gunna help. Ive been thru a similar situation and i now make around 100 k a year.